Weigh in Sunday!

Weigh in Sunday!  As I promised!!!!!!!

I lost 2.8 lbs from my last horrific weigh in, plus I have aunt flow which means im bloated too..FUN!!! However we are in the right direction with this number!! Honestly I ate some high calorie foods today but I am not disappointed in this day. 

Or this week for that matter...its been AWFUL and I could have seriously done some damage with pizza or cookies....if I had them around lol.

This weekend I have been seriously sleep deprived. 

Hubby left yesterday at a bit after 2:30 pm because they had a job to go finish.  They seriously worked over 24 hrs with NO sleep and he got home around 5:30 or 6 tonight.  SO cray. 

He stayed awake long enough to have a bath and we got Chinese ....then while he was eating and watching tv...he fell asleep with his food on his lap LOL...

He is so adorbs. lol

 

Ok so obviously you know I had Chinese for dinner!

 

Lets do this backwards to keep things interesting shall we?

 

Sesame chicken, egg roll, white rice with some broccoli (fresh and good)

 

However I only ate about half maybe, I still have a good bit of rice and chicken left.  Staci asked me one time or said something about how can I eat white rice and not get the fried lol.  It used to be hard but now its not, I love white rice and its just sooo many less cals.  When I was doing WW's it was 10pp for one cup fried and 5pp for one cup white lol.  Now hubby always gets white too!

 

White hubby was soaking his day off in the tub I was starving so I munched on about a serving, maybe a tad more of tortilla chips.

 

Before hubby came home I had been shopping: library return run, goodwill, target, dollar tree, bbw's.  I had gotten things to clean out my car and organize it.  I made a little basket after watching DoItOnADime on youtube, she is GREAT go find her!!! 

 

tissues, armorall, duster, microfiber cloth, leather wipes, trashcan, reusable grocery bag, wet wipes and hand sanitizer. 

 

Also the little neighbor kids came over and asked me if I found Reese yet.  SERIOUSLY.

 

Not a fun conversation.  I felt super bad, but I told them the truth, sparing most all the details. 
I told them she was in doggie heaven.  Which I think she is.  My heaven at least. 

 

Anyways I had went to church this morning sans husband and there wernt many other people there today either because the preacher was on vacation.  The fill in preacher stressed the fact that we should not fail to assemble ourselves together and that we are blessed to live in a country where we can attend church and its not against the law.  I completely agree. 

 

I got bojangles, first fast food all week!

 

I got the breast, biscuit and pintos and green beans because they were on the Smart Menu (for lower cals) because I knew I wanted my yummy chick and biscuit I would sacrifice for tastier sides LOL. Even the cat tried to eat my biscuit. 

 

 

 

Before church I had breakfast, Aldi's fit and active vanilla almond crunch cereal with almond milk and coffee.  Almond milk is sooo low in cals, only 40 per cup! I used to eat it years ago with multi grain cheerios like ALL the time.  Its also good in the summer if you go to a coffee house and get like two shots of espresso on ice, add in about 3/4 cup almond milk and you have a great iced coffee ( maybe splenda too) for like 40 cals!!!!

 

Ok guys well I hope yall have had a great weekend !!!

 

Friday & Sat

Ok guys, I never cease to amaze myself on how quickly I can fail at things! I am supposed to be tracking and blogging everyday.  Well Aunt Flow came yesterday and ever since I have followed my candy lovin heart.

Ok so I am going to spare you the full deets about what I have eaten but I will share with you my three main meals from yesterday and today!!

Breakfast

Friday AM

 

 

Sat AM

 

 

 

 

Lunch

 

Friday

 

 

Saturday

 

 

Taco salad bowl with rice, refried beans (fat free) and a bit of cheese and guac.  I also had some chips with it!

 

Dinner

 

Friday night-with Mom, thanks mom!

 

 

 broiled flounder and baked tater, coleslaw and hushpuppies.

 

Alaskan cream and cold chowder. 

 

Well guys im real sorry, I bet this is a disappointing post but I am going to try to get better, that's all you can do right??

 

Nighty night!

 

I love you guys.

Not sure where you are in the world but here it just rained all day.

Which was appropriate for the way I was feeling. 

Except for early this morning. 

Hubs has been working third shift, and I woke up a little after 6 am and found him out in the wet, dark, cold back yard digging a hole to bury Reese.

Now that is a good man.

He has such an incredible heart, yall.  I am so blessed.

I made us some coffee and he finished digging. 

We cried, we prayed and now she is at rest. 

God made such a beautiful dog with a beautiful heart when he made her.  She was just pure sweetness to me all her days. 

But life has to go on.  Even though all of me wanted to just lay on top of that pile of dirt and sob I had to get a shower and get ready for work.

Breakfast was a egg cooked in the microwave on a 100 cal sandwich thin with some shreadded cheese and a bit of spreadable cheese.

 

also had a bit of that grapefruit

 

For lunch I went to the dollar store and got a cemetery vase thing and some beautiful fake flowers to put out on her grave.  I also found a ton of other random crap I don't need and also discovered big red gum again.  love it.

 

Lunch was a lean cuisine bbq chicken pizza with a salad with half an avocado, cheese, red onion and olives with blue cheese dressing (just a bit, maybe a tbsp).

 

 

Ok so then one of the guys at work brought me a desert basically because his wife is an awesome cook and I always want her food she packs him...and he saw me crying my head off yesterday about my dog so this was to make me feel better lol.

I ate most of it.  They call it a lemon square and it was amazing....!!!

 

Dinner was seriously weird but I still call it a win because I was tempted to get fast food all day long and wallow in self pity and greif. 

I still wallowed just not with food.

 

That is toast with Brummel and brown, a salmon burger with hot sauce and michilenas lean gormet red beans and rice.  With milk because I suck at being a wife and we have nothing else to drink in the house.

 

These are NOT the bigger eggs, these are mini ones and I had two.  Also two mini peanut butter cups. I am not proud of today, but considering all things, it could have been a lot worse food wise. 

 

I really hope this week turns out good yall...

 

Thank you all SOOOO much for your sweet prayers and words of encouragement today, it really blessed my heart to read them all. I love you guys.

 

 

R.I.P Reese

Not really even sure how to begin this post tonight.

I'm going to share my food with you all because I promised to...as part of this April's challenge or plans or whatever you call it.  However my heart is just not in it. 

Today around four in the afternoon I got a phone call from my husband that started our, "well I've got some bad news..." and it was all downhill from there.

We got a call from a neighbor (one we haven't ever met, but they live directly across from us) and she said that Thursday night they heard some dogs barking and fighting and then the next morning when they went to mow their grass they found Reese dead in the yard and they just dumped her somewhere.  They didn't know she was ours until they saw the picture on the flier.  Which I find pretty hard to believe, but they are kinda old and Reese does pretty much stay in our yard.  So I believe them, but still...I wish they had at LEAST called the animal shelter and reported her so that we would have been notified...

 So me and April go back home and had to come up with a plan to get her back home so I could at least bury my angel.  They ended up taking us to where they had dumped her at, which tore me up but at least I had my baby I could take her home.

We ended up getting her home and my husband is going to bury our sweet puppy in the morning.  I am completely heartbroken.  I feel extreme sadness that hits me at my stomach like a sucker punch and makes me just want to double over and throw up.  I was blessed with 8 long beautiful years with her sweet self, belly rubs, tail just a waggin, and her protectiveness where she would sleep in front of the door.  She made me feel so ....safe.  And happy.  She brought me extreme joy.  I got her when I was at a very bad and dark place in life and she brought me nothing but happiness...I have cried with her so many times and been joyful with her so many others....

I was talking to my Mom on the phone tonight (she LOVED mom by the way, would literally start HOPPING through the yard when she pulled up!) and I was telling her how cute it was when she would eat her treats.  She would get one, and take it over into the yard and sit down and really enjoy it.  She wasn't greedy about it.  So incredibly cute with such life and personality.  She was really very human to me and I am having a very hard time with this. 

Breakfast was...

Luna bar was very good by the way.

Lunch was...

 

And I treated my bestie out to dinner for helping me with such a horrible task tonight.  She gave up her night, and helped me bring my baby home. 

 

We went to a local burger joint near the house and I got a cheeseburger and fries.  Small burger by the way and not very many fries. 

 

Not that I was even very hungry.  I hadn't felt the need for food all night.  Even while I was eating I was feeling sick.  We shared a banana split and didn't even eat all of it.  Our fat girl hearts were not even into it tonight. 

 

I am going to bed early tonight but I didn't want to leave yall hanging and I know so many of you sweeties have been thinking of and praying for me and I really appreciate it, from the bottom of my heart. 

 

I love love love my sweet girl and I believe that I will see her again one day, even if its just in my heaven.

 

 

 

Making a snow angel with Daddy...now she is our little Angel.

 

 

New to Me Food!

Well well well.  I have had a odd day to say the least.

I was late to work.

Turned down for being 8 minutes late to the DMV.

Couldn't find a huge piece of important paperwork for work and of course its still lost. 

Didn't even get to go to my Uncle's funeral because my boss was in such a foul mood I was scared to leave after how things have went today. 

HORRID I tell you.

Not to mention the dog is STILL not found.  WHERE IS MY DOG?! 

She is such a sweetheart it makes me crazy to think of where she is or what she is doing!?!

Ok so breakfast was insane.  I had brought oatmeal to fix but I was scared to make it because I was running late to work so I ate a luna bar instead. ugh.

220 cals

 

 

523  cals

 

This sweet and sour chicken was so good.  I think they have new packaging.  Also I had the rest of the roasted broccoli.

 

Then later on after dealing with my work crisis that isn't over I had a soft peppermint for 20 cals.

 

 

Then later on I went home and had these 2 really good chicken sandwiches from weight watchers smart ones.  These are new to me and I highly recommend them. 

 

639 calories

 

I didn't really eat that orange it was bad.

 

I put half an avocado with some hot sauce and salt and pepper (made like guac) on the chicken sammie with some red onion too. SOOOO good.

 

Then I wanted a sweet....but I did NOT go for Easter candy yay!

 

165 cals

 

Aldis fit and active almond cereal with 2% milk.

 

That's all she wrote guys, I hope tomorrow is a better day than today was!

 

A boo boo

Hey there guys. 

Well after a crappy start to the day it ended up ok.  At least I stayed under 1500 calories and ate good food.

Breakfast was Rachael Rays Instant Oatmal in the cherry berry kind of flavor.

150 cals plus 30 for coffee creamer (if that much)

 

Then lunch was fantastic.

 

550 cals

 

I had a weight watcher Santa Fe rice and beans meal for lunch with half an avocado and a serving of bite size tostitos.  It might have been more than a serving but it was the end of the bag. 

 

Grapes 104 calories

 

Dinner was seriously amazing.

 

540

 

I had a salmon burger with 1/2 a mashed avocado (hotsauce and salt mashed in) and a small 5.5 oz baked sweet potato with roasted broccoli. 

 

Sooooo good yall.

 

I am loving some avacados lately!

 

Ok so then for a night time snack I had some popcorn for about 100 cals!

 

 

 

Between dinner and night snack I had like 2 tbsp. Brummel and brown too and counted it on MFP.

 

Well guys still no sign of my dog but we are going to call another animal shealter we hadn't thought of (we are close to another state and we are going to call its shealter) tomorrow.  So please say a prayer we find her safe healthy and alive!! I am so worried about my baby!

 

So far so good, and I am staying far away from the Easter candy.  Honestly eating tons of chocolate makes me feel like crap.  I am also going to experiment with coconut milk for coffee creamer and ...SHOCKER...possibly no sweetner.  Not now, but maybe soon, I will let you all know...LOTS of fun interesting things going on this April!

 

Ok so before I go I am going to leave you with the worst carpet burn of my LIFE!!!!

 

This is why I cant workout today.  It literally hurts to bend my knee or pretty much just sit here.

 

Burns. 

 

 

Ouch indeed.

 

Ok night lovies!!!!!

 

Hell Week

Well guys I wanted to give you an update on here and a plan for April.

This has seriously been a week from hell.

At the beginning of the week a sweet lady from my home church who taught me when I was little died out of no where basically.  She has kids younger than me and it was completley unexpected and horrible.

Then later this week on thursday was my dads birthday and I ate a bunch of crap for dinner.  After that we went to see Uncle Phil who was in the hospital for lung cancer.  Pretty sad sight.  Also visited an Aunt in the same hospital who wasnt nearly as bad off though.

Then Friday went to the lady from church's visitation.  Her funeral was saturday and I was not able to attend because of work.

Friday after the visitation I am on my way home and Hubs tells me that my dog has been missing all day.

I have had her for eight years and she is my BABY.  I was a wreck.

We looked for her all weekend while I stuffed my emotional face with easter candy and JUNK.

Uncle Phillip died saturday.

Sunday was a blessed day at church because for once I felt at peace in that building, celebrating the reseruction of my Lord Jesus.

Later that day we looked for the dog some more and we havent found her.  We tried contacting animal control all weekend however they were closed due to Easter.

This morning we found out she is not there.

I feel utterly hopeless.  I keep imagining horrible things that could have happened/be happening to her right now. 

She was the absloute sweetest dog you have ever met.  She litterally HOPS around in the driveway when she is happy to see you pull up.  She doesnt even bark regularly. She was my baby. 

We have put up filers, talked to neighbors, drove around and around the neighborhood (we live in the middle of no where by the way), hubs has walked all through the back woods, we have even put it on facebook and craigslist.  I keep thinking awful thoughts like what if she is in a whole somwhere just stuck and literally starving to death!?  Like i cant even think about it!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I have to work and try to function without crying.  Not to mention everything else just sucks lately. 

But enough of the bad.  I saw a horrific number on the scale this morning that has shocked me into submission. 

The Plan for April

1. Track every single day.

2. Take pics of everything I eat and show it on the blog.

3. Blog EVERY DAY even on weekends.

4. Weigh in every Sunday morning and record it on the blog to you sunday night.  There will be no daily weighing.  I need a break from that and I need to put it in a weekly perspective just as an experiment. 

5. I am also going to workout at LEAST 3 days a week and try to make it more.  I am going to try to set up some reward type system for myself.



 I hope you all join me in getting healthy and fit this April.