R.I.P Reese

Not really even sure how to begin this post tonight.

I'm going to share my food with you all because I promised to...as part of this April's challenge or plans or whatever you call it.  However my heart is just not in it. 

Today around four in the afternoon I got a phone call from my husband that started our, "well I've got some bad news..." and it was all downhill from there.

We got a call from a neighbor (one we haven't ever met, but they live directly across from us) and she said that Thursday night they heard some dogs barking and fighting and then the next morning when they went to mow their grass they found Reese dead in the yard and they just dumped her somewhere.  They didn't know she was ours until they saw the picture on the flier.  Which I find pretty hard to believe, but they are kinda old and Reese does pretty much stay in our yard.  So I believe them, but still...I wish they had at LEAST called the animal shelter and reported her so that we would have been notified...

 So me and April go back home and had to come up with a plan to get her back home so I could at least bury my angel.  They ended up taking us to where they had dumped her at, which tore me up but at least I had my baby I could take her home.

We ended up getting her home and my husband is going to bury our sweet puppy in the morning.  I am completely heartbroken.  I feel extreme sadness that hits me at my stomach like a sucker punch and makes me just want to double over and throw up.  I was blessed with 8 long beautiful years with her sweet self, belly rubs, tail just a waggin, and her protectiveness where she would sleep in front of the door.  She made me feel so ....safe.  And happy.  She brought me extreme joy.  I got her when I was at a very bad and dark place in life and she brought me nothing but happiness...I have cried with her so many times and been joyful with her so many others....

I was talking to my Mom on the phone tonight (she LOVED mom by the way, would literally start HOPPING through the yard when she pulled up!) and I was telling her how cute it was when she would eat her treats.  She would get one, and take it over into the yard and sit down and really enjoy it.  She wasn't greedy about it.  So incredibly cute with such life and personality.  She was really very human to me and I am having a very hard time with this. 

Breakfast was...

Luna bar was very good by the way.

Lunch was...

 

And I treated my bestie out to dinner for helping me with such a horrible task tonight.  She gave up her night, and helped me bring my baby home. 

 

We went to a local burger joint near the house and I got a cheeseburger and fries.  Small burger by the way and not very many fries. 

 

Not that I was even very hungry.  I hadn't felt the need for food all night.  Even while I was eating I was feeling sick.  We shared a banana split and didn't even eat all of it.  Our fat girl hearts were not even into it tonight. 

 

I am going to bed early tonight but I didn't want to leave yall hanging and I know so many of you sweeties have been thinking of and praying for me and I really appreciate it, from the bottom of my heart. 

 

I love love love my sweet girl and I believe that I will see her again one day, even if its just in my heaven.

 

 

 

Making a snow angel with Daddy...now she is our little Angel.