I am feeling frumpy, and fat and particularly un-motivated.
I feel like I am half-ing everything.
I am halfway doing things at work.
I am halfway doing housework.
I am halfway in a marriage.
I am halfway in my weightloss efforts.
I am halfway putting effort into my spiritual life.
I am halfway LIVING.
I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS.
I want to be super motivated.
I want to be CONSISTENT.
I want to be FREAKING AWESOME AT EVERYTHING.
I know I cant be freaking awesome at everything but I want to excel at at least ONE thing for crying outloud.
I was feeling so positive and so good about myself last fall.
This winter has sucked for my weight loss and so has this spring.
Maybe its just ME who has sucked for my weight loss. UGH.
Yall I just need to vent. I am so freaking stressed out on so many freaking levels. I just want to SCREAM.
I had stupid waffles for breakfast and was hungry again when I got to work and I was hungry ALL DAY LONG. SOOOO annoying.
And I have been stress eating. And sleeping. And thinking. And I just need a vacation.
I am not finding satisfaction or happiness anywhere I feel like! Do you guys ever feel like that? I mean I haven't even had a particularly bad day or anything its just all falling on me at once.
Then I feel like a big whiney baby with first world problems complaining about my gold ring not being shiny enough.
Well I hope someone at least understands how I feel. Maybe you are there now. Maybe you have BEEN there and know how to get back. I just need my mojo back. Maybe I am at rock bottom? I haven't weighed myself in like a week, and it wasn't pretty. The 30DS was basically a waste of time for me to eat the way I did this past week. And every night when I get home I just want chocolate and marshmallows. EFF!!!!
Ok so I am going to leave you with a picture of my happy place...to calm my nerves <3
My favorite place on EARTH.
Ok so leave me a comment if you feel like you are halfing something today.
Misery loves company.