Thursday, April 11, 2013

Change.

Hey guys. 

Listen I'm so sorry I have been MIA lately.  I have been *thinking* about what is going on with myself and my weight loss. 

I haven't lost more than 6 lbs since I started this blog in October of last year and honestly I have gained most of those back.  I am not blaming blogging on this, however I feel that its time for a change.  It seems like I can either focus on MFP or on taking pics of food, but not both for some reason.  I really need to buckle down and track my calories. 

Moving kind of put me off schedule I will admit, I lost a lot of free time I once had because I have a longer commute and a bigger house to clean LOL.  Anyways.  I am going to continue blogging it just might not be food pics everyday.  I want this blog to be about more than food honestly....I want my LIFE to be about more than food.  And that right there is honest and raw and really just came to me as I wrote it. 

I want food to be fuel and nothing more.  I saw a billboard for a Mcdonalds chicken wrap today that said "handheld happiness" and I do NOT want to find happiness in a French fry.  Or a cheesecake.  Or a slice of pizza. 

I want to find happiness in the sweat that rolls off my back after a great run, or a pair of pants that fall off my hips, or happiness in putting on the dress of my dreams....feeling comfortable in my skin...LOVING a picture of myself...wearing a modest, yet trendy tankini on the beach this summer...making a healthy recipe maybe...creating something that focuses on vitamins and proteins instead of buttercream frosting....reading a good book that motivates me.

Honestly before the end of this summer (which will be my one year weight loss journey)...I want to lay on the beach, in a great swimsuit, with a book in my hand, ice cold water bottle near by, smelling sunscreen and salty sea air and just bake.  Just feel healthy and have a body that I can be proud of because I know I am being as good to it as I possibly can.  That is my summer goal.  Not a number. 

SO friends, I hope you stay with me.  I know you all love the food pics, as do I, but right now I need a break.  This isn't to say I wont do them at some point in the future...heck I might even do them one day a week!  But I am going to try to take this one day at a time.  I am sick of failing and right now I just need a change.  I just want to re-focus on fitness as a whole.  So ......(drumroll please) I did my first day of 30 day shred tonight!!!!!!! woooooo hooo!!!

Yes it sucks just as bad as everyone says it does.  I could barely hold my fork up to my mouth when I was eating dinner.  No joke.  Sore..... 

 
Speaking of dinner.....
 
These Gortons grilled tilapias are great.  They are only 80 calories a piece, and I had some roasted cabbage with it.  I was going to have strawberries and cool whip but its gotten too late! I am very happy with today, I tracked my cals and I am under 1500 woo hoo!!! Plus I worked out.  I'm glad I didn't wait till Monday to start...no time like the present.
 
Thank you all so much for your sweet comments...I've been in a depressed funk lately but I'm ready to get out of it!!! I hope you all have a lovely Friday eve!!! Night!!

10 comments:

  1. Just do trial and error until you figure out what works for you. And what works for you at one point may not work for you at another. You've came so far, and you WILL get your mojo back!

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    1. thank you girl!!!! i sure hope so!!!

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  2. I'm so glad that you posted today. I was getting worried about you. I know that you have had to deal with a lot lately but you seem to be in a great mood. Sometimes you have to switch it up and try something new. Why not right? Congrats on doing your first day of 30 day shred I know some people have had amazing results with it. Don't sweat the food pics. I do like them but I'm not going anywhere just because you aren't posting them as often. Have a great Friday!

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    1. yay!!! im glad u are staying sheila!!! lol and yes I alread did day 2 of the shread!!!! i feel like a limp noodle hahahaha

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  3. Hey girlie! I was wondering where you were too! I like the food pics, but I like just reading your blog anyway. I had to catch up on some posts after we got back from the beach. Maybe if you are going to occasionally post a food pic, you could do it if you try a new recipe you want to share, or find a new low cal food at the grocery store you think we might want to try. I think you should totally do whatever you feel works best for you & helps you the most. I'm sure the stress of losing Reese has taken it's toll on you emotionally & that just makes everything harder. You have done so amazing on this journey & I know you've got this! Love ya! :)

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    1. Thanks so much darlin!!! Yes it has been seriously AWFUL!! But Iam really trying to be back at it now!! Those are some great ideas and I will definetly do that!!! I have some exciting ideas for the blog! Love you too sweetie!!!

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  4. You could do Food Pic Fridays or My Meal Mondays or Taste My Tuesdays. Hahaha :)

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    1. haha i like that!!! i saw some people do a what i ate wednessday LOL!!! all great ideas, i think i will get creative!!

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  5. Some weeks I have to step back from blogging. Life happens. I'll be glad to read your posts but do what you need to do for you :)

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