Listen I'm so sorry I have been MIA lately. I have been *thinking* about what is going on with myself and my weight loss.
I haven't lost more than 6 lbs since I started this blog in October of last year and honestly I have gained most of those back. I am not blaming blogging on this, however I feel that its time for a change. It seems like I can either focus on MFP or on taking pics of food, but not both for some reason. I really need to buckle down and track my calories.
Moving kind of put me off schedule I will admit, I lost a lot of free time I once had because I have a longer commute and a bigger house to clean LOL. Anyways. I am going to continue blogging it just might not be food pics everyday. I want this blog to be about more than food honestly....I want my LIFE to be about more than food. And that right there is honest and raw and really just came to me as I wrote it.
I want food to be fuel and nothing more. I saw a billboard for a Mcdonalds chicken wrap today that said "handheld happiness" and I do NOT want to find happiness in a French fry. Or a cheesecake. Or a slice of pizza.
I want to find happiness in the sweat that rolls off my back after a great run, or a pair of pants that fall off my hips, or happiness in putting on the dress of my dreams....feeling comfortable in my skin...LOVING a picture of myself...wearing a modest, yet trendy tankini on the beach this summer...making a healthy recipe maybe...creating something that focuses on vitamins and proteins instead of buttercream frosting....reading a good book that motivates me.
Honestly before the end of this summer (which will be my one year weight loss journey)...I want to lay on the beach, in a great swimsuit, with a book in my hand, ice cold water bottle near by, smelling sunscreen and salty sea air and just bake. Just feel healthy and have a body that I can be proud of because I know I am being as good to it as I possibly can. That is my summer goal. Not a number.
SO friends, I hope you stay with me. I know you all love the food pics, as do I, but right now I need a break. This isn't to say I wont do them at some point in the future...heck I might even do them one day a week! But I am going to try to take this one day at a time. I am sick of failing and right now I just need a change. I just want to re-focus on fitness as a whole. So ......(drumroll please) I did my first day of 30 day shred tonight!!!!!!! woooooo hooo!!!
Yes it sucks just as bad as everyone says it does. I could barely hold my fork up to my mouth when I was eating dinner. No joke. Sore.....
Speaking of dinner.....
These Gortons grilled tilapias are great. They are only 80 calories a piece, and I had some roasted cabbage with it. I was going to have strawberries and cool whip but its gotten too late! I am very happy with today, I tracked my cals and I am under 1500 woo hoo!!! Plus I worked out. I'm glad I didn't wait till Monday to start...no time like the present.
Thank you all so much for your sweet comments...I've been in a depressed funk lately but I'm ready to get out of it!!! I hope you all have a lovely Friday eve!!! Night!!